Let me Go

Roads are isolated at this hour of time. My brother is holding me in his arms and my father is driving rashly. Both are extremely worried and every now and then they are looking towards me. We reach the doctor’s clinic. Doctor is about to leave and has already started the ignition of his car. My father runs towards him and requests him to see me. Few minutes back, I vomited out something. My family was saying it was blood, that’s why everyone is so worried. The doctor is giving me some injections and they are paining like hell. More than the pain of needles, tense expressions of my family are hurting me. Doctor tells us to take care and observe any improvement or problem till morning. We are now going back to our home, a bit relaxed.
Everyone is sleeping now, and I feel a sudden intense pain. It is like that my ribs would burst and something would come out of it. I don’t want to shout, but I am restless. I want to run to my mother and tell her to hold me tight, but I am too helpless to walk. I am lying still on my bed; my mother is coming towards me. She sees me and gives me a little jerk, but I can’t respond. I am too weak to do that. On seeing me in such a condition she starts crying loud. Everyone awakes and have surrounded me now. My pain is intense but I want to live more. I have only spent 9 years of life with my family and want to live with them forever. I don’t want to leave the world so soon. My brother picks me up in his arms and tells me, “Don’t worry baby, I won’t let anything bad happen to you”.
We are now waiting inside a hospital room. The doctor has taken blood samples and told us to wait. My brother is caressing me amicably with his hands. My father is randomly walking here and there with no idea about the next moment. And I am unable to bear the pain. My whole body is paining. I am bleeding from my mouth. I can’t see things clearly. Doctor has entered the room. I am sitting silently in my brother’s lap. “She is in extreme pain and we can’t do anything about it. Her infection has reached to a level which is not curable. Her death is certain.”, Doctor says. My brother and father are crying hard. I want to console them; I want to say that the doctor is correct. My pain is beyond my limit of tolerance. It would be good if it ends, even if it means letting my life go.
Doctor puts his hand over my father’s shoulders and tells him that we are no one to let her suffer and let her flounder in pain. The only good thing that we can do for her is to let her die in peace. Let her give a silent death, to end her pain and suffering, by a poisonous injection. Everyone is silent. My father calls home and tells everything to my mother. He disconnects the call and embrace me. After a few minutes, a needle is piercing inside me. I know this is the last pain that I have to bear. I can’t speak, but I am trying to say with my eyes,” Dad. I am your pet dog, still you love me like your child. Me too wants to live with you for many more years, but I have to go. I will love you and will take care of you from heaven. But now, let me go”. Now, I am going on a peaceful and deep sleep.

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